Wednesday, December 15, 2010
rest my tired head
remember me, bring me home again.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Sober reflections of intoxicated musings
So I have not liked anybody since october 10th 2004.
Liking someone is really a mysterious and interesting thing, if only we had more control over it, if only we could only be infatuated with people that would be healthy relationships and save ourselves all the trouble and heartache.
I have no idea why I do, I just know that I do.
And I know why, I know exactly why.
I am so entirely frustrated.
I know what I want is slightly unreasonable, I just don't think that it is that far fetched at all.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Soo nothing cohesive
Paralyzed in thought. Not so much by fear but by lack of emotion.
There is a need…for something, for anything that will make me feel again.
I always hated when people said they were depressed.
How fucking hard is it to smile? Or to just laugh?
But I think that I may understand now.
Everything is not fun anymore.
Even my favorite things bring no satisfaction, not that they ever did?…did they?
So I sit. Constantly streaming variables through my mind. It all seems hopeless.
Where is this God? My god?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I want to be the very best
But I am to tired to write and I am too lazy.
And I half ass this blog like I do everything in my life.
Thats pretty lame.
Here's to the new year and getting things right.