Sunrise, I know me and my drums have a healthy relationship.

So it is 4am.

The end of a day or the beginning of a new day?
Thats how life is, its sorta of hard to tell if something is a beginning or an ending.

Well the suns coming up soon, so I think I will stay out here in the fresh air, and read a book a little bit and blog and just reflect and keep writing poorly structured run-on sentences.

I have only had the pleasure of watching one or two sunrises, nay only had the common sense to watch a couple sunrises.


.....that is something I shall have to remedy.


Ill tellll you how that goes.



Its so odd how I can do the things that dont make me happy, and say the things I dont want to do. No, it is thee exact opposite of what I love, of what I want to do, that I end up doing. I feel like the apostle Paul and what he was talking about in Romans 7:15 "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." its funny how I havent really read my bible in years yet I can still quote it.

the Word is just on my heart, i have always been good at quoting the bible.
but i dont want to be a christian, they cant seem to get anything right,

but maybe thats just it, the beauty in the breakdown.



Its funny how I can kick the kick drum, and not just feel the kick of the drum and boom of the bass from my toes to my face, I feel it in my chest I FEEL IT IN MY SOUL, but still I am scared to admit thats what I was made to do, because that means I have to let go, take a risk.

A ship in the harbor is safe, but that isnt what ships were made for.
Its dangerous out on a limb, but isnt that where the fruit is?

I have an affinity for language, and people and relationships.
Seriously, nor cal you have no idea, you dont know me, but id love to get to know you.

So cal, I miss you.

TANGENT ends here...

So back to feeling that kick drum so deep in my soul.

Drumming, makes me happy, its something I love so much that I want to do it more each time I do it, I want to get better every time I play, it reminds me a bit of what love should be like.

I know me and my drums have a healthy relationship.

No matter how bad I play I love it, every little sound the imperfections and all.
and
No matter how good I play I am always trying to improve, to play better quicker faster, more from the soul.

I was drunk not to long ago, and I wasnt happy, I just wanted to stop talking but I couldnt seem to keep my mouth shut.



MODERATION,

Ecclesiastes 7:18 "The man who fears God will avoid all extremes ."

I need to cool it.

I always over do it, I am always all or nothing. I guess its good that I am never lukewarm, but sometimes it is good to test the waters.


SIMPLICITY SIMPLICITY SIMPLICITY.


The suns just barely starting to show just a hint of its glory.

A few more short hours to enjoy this masterpiece in the sky.